finding my place — for now

I am not actually sure how to write this down, or if I really should.  But today seems to be the perfect time for closure.  I've been saying a lot of things lately, related to this term - CLOSURE. 

My earlier work-rants last March, I have reviewed the list of opportunities that I have passed on.  All my life, I have lived a life without regrets, or so I say.  I wanted a life that I can look back on, smile and say that everything's fine.  But it has not made me immune from situations that I am forced to make a stand in what I believe to be more important.  There are bridges over troubled water that I have to cross. 

Earlier today, I started to write the real story from where I see it, when the page was accidentally refreshed.  Gone was the 4 paragraphs that I was pouring on for the past hour in one flash.  I am not sure if it was a sign for me to re-think on what I was doing.  Until now that I am typing this up, I am still a bit unsure of what I would really be writing. Well, here goes nothing…

Do you believe that each a person's action, no matter how alone he is in the world, would have a chained reaction even to those he is not connected with?  I do.  It's like waves in the sea.  It cascades until it reaches the shore.  I'm not sure where the shore is.  I guess, it all depends.  Maybe, one touch can move from continent to another.  I believe that this is because, no man is an island. A man drops a banana peeling on the street and continued on, but that banana peeling can actually be part of the fertilizer put into a farmer's plant.  Yeah, that long, and that's how wild my imagination is. (Don't ask me what happened to the man. I am morbid. )

There are things in life that happens that I have no control over - they just do.  I have this notion of what would happen based on one scenario, but there is no actual proof that they would.  I am not a fortune teller.  When I was supposed to go already, and then something came up the next minute, I don't blame that something.  I manage the change.  SOMETHING may not consider what he has came up with could do to me, nevertheless, I don't dwell on that.  Life has a lot to offer me more than just that situation.

Newton's third law of motion, the Law of Reciprocal Actions states that "Whenever one body exerts force upon a second body, the second body exerts an equal and opposite force upon the first body."  Well Mr. Newton, let's take that into another mischarmed's skeptical law.

"Whenever something happens that demands your action, you respond with a step towards something that you can never calculate the full extent of impact.  A dip in a clear water casts ripples that can extend towards shores you never knew of."

To those who make decisions without surveying the waters: Have a care to how much your waves can affect the other sailboats on the unknown shores.  To those hit by the unexpected waves: Never cast anchors on sand.  When waves come in, you'll be thrown into its mercy.  Do not blame the ship who launched into the ocean.  Look at the sun, and bask in its glory.  There are plenty more shores where yours is set to shine. 

I am still on this shore, waiting for the time when my ship will set its sail.  I did had my heart set to sail out to places where my dreams are, but I guess, this is not the right time.  Another ship has taken its sail, and I am forced to simply marvel at its splendor.  Maybe some day, I will reach that horizon, too — another time, another place.