fairness is subjective

the title is actually a statement that was told to our department earlier this year. it was a defense statement to possible comments, reactions from the recent skills review, to which the higher the skills ranking, the higher the incentive to be given. everyone was vying of course for the highest rank - like it's realistic for someone who worked here in PH without training.

okay, im not kidding. but i tell u - it doesn't matter MUCH to me. of course it would be good if i get a high rating, coz that means higher incentive. but at the end of the day, i hear this line - fairness is subjective - and its truth rang true.

why am i telling this? its not an outburst - but its my own way of viewing where i am in this situation.

the process of selection starts with the form to which all my skill sets are entered.then, a screening process by the jurors - top management in the department, then the actual release/notification of the skill set. i got a XX. okay, i won't tell it here in case any of my colleague read this blog. my pt. 1, some people do not really fill up the form, yet they have this YY rating. my pt. 2, some people do not really read the form i entered. my pt. 3, can anyone not coming from Skills background really rate my skills set level?

that happened months ago, and quite frankly, im over and done with it. but here comes april. in less than 2 wks time, the appraisal ranking would be annouced and be officialized.

the process: forms, review by mgt, force ranking. okay, i understand the budget constraints, et -al, that at the end, there would be only one (yep, like the Highlander series, u know?Duncan Mcloud? or something like that.. or maybe jet Lee or Li? im not really keen on those stuff, sorry).. Point is, would there really be an apple-apple comparison? Can i really be compared against someone below my rank? Would the comparison be fair?

the statement is the answer. the statement is the truth. Fairness is subjective. 

No matter where i look at it, it is not an apple-to-apple comparison for me. As story-told (kasi story telling daw hahaha) to me, it's like putting a rooster (i don't want to use a cock haha) against a duck in a cockpit. Guess who wins?

I am not bitter (yet? hahaha). Not really. It doesn't make my day if I get promoted, nor does it make my day to see others fall, or ruin my day if others whom i see lower than me gets promoted. I don't see that as something that makes me ME. fact is, i may care (of course, the higher promotion, the more money there is.. and money is a necessity folks!) for some percentage. i won't lie on that. but take me on a tequila session, and baby, i'm gonna bet it won't matter anymore!!!! (just kidding! hehehe).

Maybe i really am seeing it the way i wanted to see it - unfair because i didn't get the winning cup. Maybe, the managers really see it as unfair to face off the ducky against the chicky (okay, rooster!)… At the end of the day, even with the measly pay, I get to sleep with a good pillow, a satisfied sigh, and a calm soul - that i have good friends, i work with colleagues who respect me as i respect them, and (as much as i know of…) doesn't talk behind my back (much! hahaha). that i could sleep knowing that - is good enough life for me.